Happiness

It was a long rather disappointing and unlucky day.

My wallet was empty. I took ATM card and went to the nearest ATM. As I stepped out of my home, it started raining, raining heavenly. ATM machine was out of order. As I stepped back to home, rain stopped. Then I borrowed money from my friend and went to a restaurant. On the way, I saw road, as dry as the golden desert, teasingly showing me that it rained only in my area, that too when I went underneath the naked sky. And that 24*7 available restaurant was closed. Whole day went with all such small bad luck incidences.

I had a very important work to do in a govt. office, for which today was the last day. It was nearly a month, I was going there, they always rejected my application. This time when I went to the office, I knew deep in my mind that it wouldn't be completed today as well, specially today, since its already been a dark day.

While I was entering to the office, somebody clapped. I turned and saw, it was a beggar, a deaf beggar, clapping for begging, 20-22 years old. I went to him and tried to say(in sign language) "if my work gets completed, I'll give you 20 Rs".

I went inside and the work was unexpectedly completed, I felt really happy, happy enough to throw a party, so I gave that beggar 50 Rs. and to watch him as happy as I am, I was standing. He misunderstood my standing, and with a very polite smile, he gave me back 30 Rs.

He carried politeness in his smile but not that happiness I was looking for. I confusingly began to walk towards my house's direction, but then I turned back and gave him 10 more. Now he was smiling, smiling with all happiness he could show.

On the way to my home I realised, its not when, you get what you expected, will make you happy, it will just make you satisfied. But when you get what you didn't expected, will definitely make you happy.

I called my father and said, "Dad, I love you and I really miss you". He wouldn't be expecting such a call, and it would have made him happy. When I reached home, everybody asked me, "why are you late?". I said I came walking. It was unexpected for everyone there, but they were not happy, they scolded me. I realized not every unexpected thing are good. :)

Two Worlds

One fine evening, it was dark as night due to heavy clouds. The condition looked as if it is going to rain heavenly, the clouds were waiting for someone to cross some street.

I was in my room, and all of a sudden power was gone, it started raining and somebody knocked my door. I opened the door as slowly as possible, until I saw who is it and after seeing, everything stopped, opening of door, rain, my heart beat, everything. She was there, the girl, with whom I feel like I am the luckiest man in this world. I kept watching her, half hanging with the half opened door, after few seconds passed, I came back and sat, I said nothing, I couldn't say anything. She entered, I lit the candle, as it was getting darker, she started talking, explaining how she came. I went to the music system and played one romantic song. I offered my hand to dance with me, and we started dancing, her hands on my shoulder, my hands on her waist, legs were doing all the dancing thing, one step left one step right, with all tenderness. She was looking more beautiful, with the romantic orange light coming from candle and blue light from window coming all the way from the evening sun passing through the monstrous clouds, both giving nice shade to her face. I felt like, now I don't want anything from my life.

Somebody knocked the door again. My eyes opened. I saw no one in my room, innocent morning white light, disturbing me unintentionally, was all over in it.

I closed my eyes again, and there was she, with same all romantic environment. I asked her, "Are you real?". She replied "ofcourse I am". I begun dancing again. I was feeling it real, but in my mind I was putting all logic.
How can she come to my place, when she doesn't even know where I live.
How can I play music when there is no power.

Then I opened my eyes,saw everything in my room, then closed it again. She was still there. It wasn't feeling like opening and closing of eyes, but like OPENING eyes in real and dream world consecutively. With closed eyes I took off from bed, and in my dream I was still talking with her. I said "Please do come in the real world too". I kept my eyes close so that I can see her as long as possible. I went to door, then to bathroom, I was in two worlds at the same time. Then when I washed my face, she was gone.

Since then whenever I see her, I feel happy as well as sad. Happy, because I feel lucky to have a look at her. Sad, because, the moment I see her I think that, as she is in front of me, it can be nothing but a dream.

Relations

There are two types of relations. One is Blood made relation, and another is Time made relation.
Blood made relations are like father, mother, sister, brother, cousin, grand parents and all(family members). This type of relation is constant one(no change in love, love forever), you love your father means, you love him from the day you were born till the day of your separation(death).
Time made relation are those which are dependent on time, like friendship. As time pass by, the relations becomes stronger or weaker, according to the separation (distance between the two friends ). But there are some relations which grow stronger, even if the distance between the two is high.
So it is necessary for the relation, whose strength(love for the person) goes on increasing regardless of the separation, just to end increasing the strength. One wants to shift that relation in constant one, to the loved one, blood made relation, letting the person to become a part of your family. So the question is, why to choose only husband and wife, why can't it be brother and sister or brother in law and sister in law. Don't you love your sister, don't you want to see her happy. Love is all about to wish to see the person you love, happy.
And the answer is, strength of that relation(love for the person) is so much increased that you don't just want to see her happy, you'll do anything to see her happy, you want to be with her always. And among the given relations, in family only husband and wife stays with each other.
As, this kind of relation was time made relation, I don't believe in love at first sight. [:D]
Well now a days, we should think for brother-brother relations also :P

Excess

There is an old saying in sanskrit, "Ati sarwagya warjyate". That means excess of anything is bad.

We can handle things in two ways, one is using it and another is misusing it. Nuclear reactions can be used for getting power (electricity) and also can be used in nuclear bombs. One of my friend had some disease in which he was growing thinner. Doctor suggested him to drink beer, 3 teaspoons daily. Then for 5 years he drunk beer, which gave him no harm. Medicines have alcohol in them, for removing illness. But, alcohol taken in EXCESS is injurious to health. These things were created or invented for some good reason, but everything depends in the way we are using it.

Sugar(glucose) is meant for getting instant energy, but excess of it can cause diabetes. Excess of everything is bad. Teasing a friend in front of all other friend for fun is good and grow relations closer, but excess of teasing can make the person angry and can break friendship. Excess of gaming, sleeping, talking and even studying are also not good.

Sometimes excess of love is also not good[;)]. After a long time, when I went to my home, my mom fed me with all the stuffs, which she knew I like. I was trying to control myself, but, as love was involved in it so I couldn't say NO, and ate everything. And at last I vomited all of it out. Then she realised, its excess.

Values

People usually like those things which they do not have. Those things are valuable for them.
Once upon a time, nearly 15 years ago, I was very fond of lighters, as one of my friends had it. I had a passion for buying it. I started to keep my pocket money in a small piggy bank, till it’s enough to get one of it. I bought a lighter. I was very excited and happy. I kept it in my cupboard and never looked at it again. It was of no use to me.
People have no respect for the things they have. It is applied to nearly everything we see around us.
The things that you can get easily will have lesser value for you than the things you will have to try hard to get. But after sometime they both will have same value for you, as you already have them now.
If you want that the value of the thing, which is valuable for you, remains the same, then try not to take it under your control, until it’s not intrinsic. Like, if I like a song, I’ll not hear it more than one time in two, three days, well now I like to write a blog, so I have decided not to write more than 1 in a week.... :)

Action

Life is all about our own actions.

Actions are , "each and every" thing we do.Actions are the result of composition of different things, such as "Condition", "Choice" , " Habit", which favour the final action. Every individual action depends upon these three things. People will do the things if its their habit, or if the condition is favouring them to do so or if its the choice they have made for themselves for their good. So one person can admire you and another can be a person who treats you bad, or irritates you, does something wrong, will be considered as a bad person. But he is acting according to his condition, habit and mostly choice. According to him he is as good as Shri Rama in Ramayana. So all good and bad things are perspective.

Every thing in this world depends upon the action. One's action can create some condition for another. One can regret about his own action. For doing any action, condition cant be changed , habit can only be change forcefully, but one can make right choice in perspective of everyone so that there will be no need of regretting for our own action.well, in the end I want to say that I was thinking to write a blog from long time which is turned into "action", because I was dying to ... ;) another factor of edmitting an action ;)